Settling in for the long run.

Well, I've come to settle things, or at least things are being settled, wether I want them to or not. You see, I've been talking with women, and that can sometimes get confusing, especially when one or more of them like you. (What a tough situation for a nice guy...) Anyway, my relationships have been a little rocky lately, which has been mostly my fault, but it's all a long story. (Don't worry, I'll get around to it eventually...) So I've been talking with these three really cool girls (I'm not sure if I've mentioned their names as of yet, so they shall remain nameless...) Girl #1 I've known for a long time, and have set my heart upon. Girl #2 I met at camp, and she's liked me ever since. And Girl #3 is really awesome, though we've never actually met face to face, we've talked about tons of stuff and she liked me a lot, and I her for a while, but that's been discussed, and we're still really good friends. (It's a whole lot more complicated and drawn out than that, but that's the condensed version...)
So my relationship with Girl #3 has been settled and we're really firm, my relationship with Girl #2 has been touch and go, unfortunately I've been leading her on when I didn't really mean to, and now I'm going to have to break her heart by telling her that we should be just friends, because I really want to go out with Girl #1, who I have loved for a long time. And it's not just that mushy/horny love/lust either, I genuinely would give my life for hers in a heartbeat. Not that I wouldn't for any of my friends, but she holds a special place in my heart (which sounds cheezy... but I'll just leave it there.) I really should finish this post, but I need to go to a meeting, so I'll probably get back to it later, after homework... oh well.

Exegesis Killed my Motivation

Remember that huge paper I had to turn in a while ago? I might not have mentioned it, but there was a huge paper that we had to turn in for Bible, it was basically our midterm exam. Anyway, since our teacher is the self-acclaimed WSG (World's Glowest Grader), we finally got our papers back today, and I did fairly well. I failed it. Now, before you gasp in shock and horror (which you probably have already done...), let me explain.
So I did well, I could have expanded on a few points here, done some more research there, left out that unrelated quote in that paragraph, and ran that darn spell checker one more time before I turned it in. Of course, this (plus some other things I could have done better on) is all fine and good, leading to my fair grade of 78 (117/150). Well, when I turned it in, I forgot an outline and works cited, a total of 10 points. "Ouch, better put those in before I actually turn it in, and since I also forgot to print two copies, I'll just turn it in later today, no problem." One thing I forgot to look over because I was getting it in under the wire anyway (it was due at the beginning of class and I was five minutes late because I had to print it in the labs...) was that he takes of twenty percent for work turned in late. You read that right, TWENTY PERCENT! Not just twenty points, but a full two letter grades! So my decent (passing) grade of 78, a high C, has turned into a dismal failing grade of 58...
Almost a D, but not quite. Well, that surprised me, and angered me... But after checking the Syllabus and seeing that I was right, and noticing that if I had turned in the original copy (sans outline and bibliography), I would have gotten a 71 percent (107/150). Still a C, but a PASSING GRADE nonetheless. So I am quite steamed, and deflated at the same time. I really need to work on the rest of the papers now, there are four, and two are required, but I neglected to do the first one, due last Monday, the 21st, because I felt confident in my Exegesis paper grade. Now I should do all of the last three, because he'll take the highest two of the grades for those papers.
So if your reading this because you're wondering why I'm not on AIM, this is why. These next two weeks will be the worst weeks of my academic life so far. I need all the focus I can get. I won't even be listening to music, or at least trying not to anyway... but that's another story, maybe next time. Anyways, talk to you later.

Well, that was nice.

I feel better. The roller coaster of my life has come to a coasting point. I still have to make the "big decision," but I don't think it'll make that much of a difference... Of course, I probably haven't analyzed it enough yet. Basically, I have to decide between waiting for someone I've known and have seen for a long time and have grown to love, someone who I've know for a lesser amount of time, and have grown to like a lot, and someone who I haven't even met, but have spilled my guts out to like I do with the first person. I haven't even known the third girl for a year, and that's only online and just now having a two and a half hour conversation on the phone with...
So it's been rough today. I don't know who I want to pick, and yet I do kind of, but that decision won't get me anywhere, plus it will probably hurt the other two... which I don't want to do. So I'm stuck between two girls who like me, and two girls who like a different guy (yes, there are only three girls, figure it out...) One of the girls who likes another guy thinks she likes me more, and I don't think that the girl that I love who likes another guy thinks the same of me, and the third girl just likes me. A lot. How much worse can it get for a guy like me? ;-) (sarcastically speaking of course, and yet, there is some truth in humor...) So yeah. Yet another pointless post updating a small part of the world on my troubled existence.

My life is crashing down!

Yeah, pretty much. Things are happening that are extremely difficult to get my hands around, friends are getting upset, friends relatives are in the hospital, it's a mess. Short post, I know. Maybe I'll update it later, right now I need to make a phone call.

Hooray! I feel happy! (And I can see!)

I am sooo relieved! I have been wearing contacts for the past few days (if you've seen me, no, I wasn't blind) because earlier this week I had lost them. I had no idea where they were, and I was afraid that they had fallen in the trash, since it's a perfect trajectory for them to fall from my bed to the trash can. I didn't worry about it until Wednesday, when we had room inspections, because I figured that I would find them then. I didn't. This worried me, because I thought I had looked through the trash pretty well, which I did. Now today I get a refund check from the school for a loan that had extra credit on my account, and I was considering using it to buy a new pair of glasses. (The ones I lost were spares replacing the glasses that lost a lens on the Floor getaway some months earlier... another story.)