So, about that rollercoaster...

Yeah, it's still rocking and a rolling. Definitely a lot of stuffs going on, and a lot of it is good, very good for me, and us, and God. God's gonna get a lot more of me from now on. My plans are good, but God's plans are better. My plans seem to be lining up well, but only God can pull them through.

It looks like I'll be looking for a second job for the summer to save up for during the school year when I won't be working as much. Parents want me to keep my work hours less than 20, but The owner says that he's gonna need me for more than that. Luckily, with the classes I'm registered for at Essex now, it shouldn't be a problem to be able to work more, and as long as I keep my grades up (A's and B's... shooting for a 4.0 ideally, at least a 3.0, and I can't get less than a C to be able to transfer the credits to LeTourneau.)

*sigh* I'll be needing to work a lot more on my school, which means I won't be on the computer as much, working a job and school will take up a lot... I'll be writing more letters to my girlfriend, starting this week. I just need something to talk about; I guess I'll just start with everything I forget to say over the phone. :-) She sent me a nice letter, and a novelization (I guess that's the best name for it... it's a narrative work) that was really quite good, even if it wasn't completely original. ;-)

I'm praying that I will find a passion, or rather that God will give me a passion for work and school. Dad has noticed that I have a passion for doing things I enjoy (no duh, right?) and not so much for things I need to do but aren't as fun. Well, I see that I do things I need to do, but at a much lower priority than things that I like doing. They still get done, but slower than they should be. So, that needs to switch, and I need a vision for my career, some guidance for what I'm gonna do with my education, so that I will be motivated to succeed. Right now my motivation is marriage at the end or near the end of my college career. Good enough, right? Actually, no. I need to know or have a strong feeling about what I want to be doing after my college is done so I can easily find a job to support my future family.

Right now, that's what I'm saving for, aside from other savings that aren't so long term. A car (and insurance), living space/rent, and foodz are gonna become real important once I get married. *eek!* Marriage! ;-) Wow! You know... I figured I'd be married by 25... maybe 23... but it sure seems to maybe be coming up soon hopefully... *crosses fingers and squinches eyes* God help us! Please! Really! We need you!

Ah, the roller coaster of life and relationships.

Dang... seems like just when we've got something good going and planned out, something comes by and shakes things up a bit. Luckily this one will only give us more resolve for each other. Commitment is a tough thing, and it takes God to hold a relationship together, because we humans are too darn frail and fickle. We still have a good thing going for us, and I'm so glad for that. Nothing will shake us, unless either of us are dissatisfied and talking can't resolve it. That would take a whole lot more than what's gone on before, especially since God is the glue that holds us together.

A quick prayer: God, thank you for your ever loving kindness, and your patience and peace that surpasses all understanding. Bestow upon us some of that patience, test us and find us pure, that we may glorify you more. Lord show us the way to your heart, and lead us through the temptations of life. Hold us close to you, for though we know nothing can snatch us from your grip, we can often feel like we might slip through your fingers.

A new resolve I have for her, that I will live my life righteously for Christ, and that I will be prepared for the events that we hope will unfold in the next two years, and that neither of us will be foolish in any of our actions.

Gilligan(understandingly frustrated)

Life is good!

Hey everyone out there in bloggerland! Welcome back to life in Stephenville! It sure is good now. Well, aside from the fact that I won't see my girlfriend for another few months. *sigh* I'm so glad she loves the Lord, because He is the ultimate guidance. We all need to rely on God, especially the two of us. A commitment is a commitment, and we've both agreed to it. Being honest and open and communicating is the best thing for any relationship, everyone always says it because it's true!
I'm going to care group pretty regularly now, they switched their schedule to Thursdays for the summer, right after I got a job set up with the evenings off on Tuesdays... grr.
Well, I definitely got much distracted while writing this post, so I shall continue it Monday, when I actually have some free time in the morning. :-)