New Design

Wait, I might hesitate
Am I a minute too late?
Please Lord, I need to know,
This pressure's got me letting go
If I'm wrong, will I still carry on
And end up where I belong?
I've never felt this way, before

I've never come so close
I've never worn so thin
I'm stepping out, instead of closing in
I left myself behind
When I made up my mind
No turning back this time
This is my new design

Sometimes, I feel so alone
It feels like I'm standing on my own
And I've never, felt so far from home
it's coming on, it hits me when I step
outside my zone

I see, what you're doing to me
Could've been you so easily
but you look the other way
Even though we were close the other day
And I'm still trying to get up this hill
I need you just like a pill
And I've never felt this way before

Do ya get the feeling, everything will be alright?
I'm moving, so pleased to meet you
But I am moving on, tried to pass it to another
But it's coming on, I can't wait to find out
Break me, I can't seem to climb out
Of this hole, I'm stuck again
If I'm not out in a minute, I'm jumping in
Let's start again
I'm sick of this

Let's just, get it out, are ya feelin' it?
Move back, ya wanna feel how real it is?

Sometimes I feel so alone!

(Thousand Foot Krutch: Phenomenon)

TFK really spoke to how I feel tonight... God had me stick their CD in and put it on random for a reason. In it it's really me talking to two people, they'll know who they are. In the explanation below, I kind of expound upon the lyrics and add my own thoughts.

Here it is:

Wait, I might hesitate
(To do the right thing)
Am I a minute too late?
(To save the relationship before it's too late)
Please Lord, I need to know,
(What can I do now?)
This pressure's got me letting go
(Too much stress, what's the cause? Is it me?)
If I'm wrong, will I still carry on
(Will you carry me on?)
And end up where I belong?
(Where do I belong?)
I've never felt this way before
(Why have you told me to let go and give You the one I love?)

I've never come so close
(To breaking down)
I've never worn so thin
(I'm on my last threads)
I'm stepping out, instead of closing in
(Stepping out to You in faith, rather than closing everyone else out)
I left myself behind
(I really don't want it to be this way)
When I made up my mind
(You made it so clear it has to be)
No turning back this time
(I'm going forward in You, please bring her along too)
This is my new design
(I am a new creature, being formed into Your image daily)

Sometimes, I feel so alone
(It seems you've left me all alone?)
It feels like I'm standing on my own
(Why was I ignoring You)
And I've never, felt so far from home
(Home is where the heart is, and mine's in Texas)
it's coming on, it hits me when I step
(You stopped me in my tracks)
outside my zone
(And guided me to a different path)

I see, what you're doing to me
(Change object: I was pulling my hair out)
Could've been you so easily
(I want you to be the one)
but you look the other way
(Why, except that I'm so far away?)
Even though we were close the other day
(A few months ago)
And I'm still trying to get up this hill
(It's hard going uphill when it feels like you're not pushing too)
I need you just like a pill
(I was addicted to you, couldn't get off you)
And I've never felt this way before
(It's weird listening to God and still not knowing where we're going)

Do ya get the feeling, everything will be alright?
(I pray you do)
I'm moving, so pleased to meet you
(May God bless you)
But I am moving on, tried to pass it to another
(This doesn't particularly apply)
But it's coming on, I can't wait to find out
(God's leading me, I don't know where)
Break me, I can't seem to climb out
(From myself, I can't do it by myself)
Of this hole, I'm stuck again
(I fall back away from God)
If I'm not out in a minute, I'm jumping in
(I'm so eager to trust myself)
Let's start again
(God, and you if He leads us)
I'm sick of this
(I need loyalty and reliability and trust... God can provide)

Let's just, get it out, are ya feelin' it?
(Can you let go of yourself)
Move back, ya wanna feel how real it is?
(Can you trust God fully for your strength?)

Sometimes... I... feel... so... alone!
(Without God, life pretty much sucks)